despair

i felt absolutely down. sis called and we chatted on her progress since delivery schedule is juz 3 weeks to go. she sounds very down and tired coz she is still seeing out patients on daily basis. can't stop coz she needs the money for the period she cant work after delivering the baby. since she is a partner doctor now, there wont be any income if dun work. her back is aching and tummy is rock hard by now. so to imagine her going to patients house in winter time alone make me wanna cry.
and i can't offer any damn help.

worset still, she said she is worried the legal fee after the baby is born. since she is not a uk pr yet, the baby will be without official nationality unless the father, which holds the pr, sign on the birth cert. til now only sis mentioned the damn fella said clearly he won't admit any responsibility or sign any document, all that back in june. and sis never contacted him after that. she consulted a lawyer and the only way is appointing a court order to force a dna test, if positive, enforce him to sign the birth cert. i am so upset now, how can a man be so cruel to an innocent baby? i can accept if he wont want to get married, i can also accept if he wont take any responsibilty after the baby is born, but a simple signature to a piece of paper to safeguard the baby's status?! a blady 'no'. juz bcoz he insisted an abortion? speechless..

and the lawyer sent her a bill of 200 pounds for a paragraph long email and 300 pounds for a 30 minutes discussion. so can't really predict how much its gonna costs to get the court order thingie.. 2 finger salute to all fat ass lawyers out there. why there aint any ppl like karpal singh or micheal chong in uk?sigh

i just dunno how she is gonna handle all these things alone, got to recover fast, take care of the baby, and the court case all in the same time. my aunts can only stay for 2 weeks after her delivery. it means she will be alone by then til another aunt takes care of her in mid feb. wht if she suffers from ceasarean complications, wht if she falls down alone in the house, wht if the baby fells sick? she said she can't afford and wouldn't dare to think of these right now, and all i can say is things will be fine... it's not.